Left alone - Eiji.Andrew

Eiji wasn’t a big person. He was very much on the smaller side of things. His temper, just the same as his height, was legendarily short. Andrew had held off telling him about how he’d been feeling recently just because of that.

“What do you mean you’re feeling lonely?” Eiji scoffed, “I know I work a lot but can't be lonely. I'm not lonely, and we live together. How does that even work?.”

Andrew groaned, “I tell you I’m feeling lonely and you immediately throw it off because you’re not.” He stood up, clenching his fists, “You’re lucky I don’t even think to mention you’re not lonely because you’re fucking anyone who wants it.”

“Oh, don’t shoot that gun.” Eiji warned.

Andrew was fuming, and he was swearing - and only two minutes into the argument. This wasn’t going to just blow over.

“Are you really lonely or are you just angry I’m getting some away from you?”

“I’m angry because you’d murder me if I even thought of going elsewhere for my sex.”

“I would not. We decided this was open –“

Andrew growled, “Excuse me -You decided. I’m monogamous, and it’s because I want to be.  Eiji… I’m just trying to make you understand how this is hurting me.”

“I’ll stop then.” Eiji threw his hands up.

Andrew shook his head and out his hands on his hips. This wasn’t the first time Eiji had said that, or the second… or the third. Just say it, Andrew.

“If you do anything with one more person that isn’t me… I’m leaving.”

Eiji’s mouth dropped, “Leaving… Me?”

“And that isn’t limited to sex. You can flirt but it stops there.”

“Baby -”

Andrew’s eyebrows were stern and his voice was final, “If you don’t think you can do it, I can pack my bags now.” He unclenched his fists, “What will it be?”

Eiji’s eyes moved from Andrew to the floor. He was shaking. How dare Andrew just confront him like that. He’d barely been home five minutes, and this is what he came back to.

“Andrew…” Eiji tried the soft approach, reaching for his lovers hand. Andrew snatched it away and took a step back.

“Eiji… tell me you love me.”

Eiji nodded, but was silent for a moment. Finally, “I do.”

“I love you. Say it.” Andrews lips trembled, “Say it like I just said it.”

There was silence. Andrew could see him trying to find the courage to speak, he could see it. Just for once he wanted to hear it in full. Just to hear it would keep him here.

Eiji said nothing. His eyes were still searching but not a word made it to the surface.

Andrew hung his head, blinking tears from his eyes, “You can’t say you love me and you won’t promise to be with me and only me.” he sobbed, “I don’t want to be here anymore.”

“So…You’ll just leave?” Eiji sounded insulted, “You won’t even give me a chance?”

“Tell me you love me, Eiji. Tell me you won’t fuck some guy in an elevator because you want me instead. Tell me it’s not because I’ve told you not to!” Andrew screamed at him, “Give me a reason to stay with you, give me a reason to think you’ll try. Tell me you love me!”

“You can’t leave!”

Andrew shook his head, reaching for his keys and wallet, “I’ll leave. I am leaving. I give you everything. Every part of me goes to you. What do you want to give in return? How do you expect me to react to this?” Andrew waited for Eiji to respond but he didn’t “ ‘Don’t leave, Andrew. I’ll be alone!’ You’re already alone."

Eiji tried to snatch Andrew’s hands as he reached for the door, but Andrew glared at him in such a way that he could only cower and cry as the only person who had ever truly loved him, left him.

This wasn’t the first time it’d happened to Eiji, or the second.